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Dear, Ex.

Don't say I'm special if you will end up leaving me.

You know I'm a mess.

If I'm too much for you to handle then don't make me feel like someone in this world actually loves me.

Have you ever thought maybe I need some help? Of course not.

It's just easier to hate on me and make me feel dead instead.

If you can't handle me at my worst then you aren't worth my time.

You leaving when I believe that you would stay.

You leaving my side when I needed you the most.

Today, I don't have any bad words for you, I just want to thank you.

Thank you for teaching me a lesson of life, for making me realize my worth, for making me realize that I deserve better. 

Thank you for making me stronger.

Thank you for leaving me, so that I could find the lost of me.

I won't block or delete you, I'll keep you there.

So you're able to see how happy I am without you.

When you see me, I want you to recognize what you had, regret what you lost, and realize what you're never getting back.

I'm glad I had you as an example of what not to look for in the future.

I have to learned to get to know people better before I start calling them my dear..

And now, I was about to find you in my dictionary, but I almost forgot, you're already have no meaning anymore.

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